God Will Pull Through for You
Sometimes I feel like I have no idea what I’m doing.
It seems the world is falling apart but somehow manages to keep spinning.
I wonder how I can keep up with it when I’m barely keeping up with the things I am doing.
I’m going to school full-time.
I’m trying to land an internship for the summer.
I’m trying to figure out where I’ll live at in the fall.
I’m trying to be a good roommate, daughter and friend.
I got another rejection email from an agency I applied to.
Which frustrated me more than anything.
I feel I am doing all I can to find a job and nothing is happening.
I met a boy who has completely captivated me.
But he’s not in a good place in his life.
And I can’t do anything to change that.
It's increasingly harder to do normal, everyday things because I am so unsure about what the future holds.
How can I work at anything if I don’t know what I’m working towards?
But want to know something?
Despite these frustrations and difficulties, God keeps pulling me through.
Just when I thought I was at my wit’s end, one of my professors sat down with me yesterday and renewed my hope about finding internships.
He shared how he was exactly in my shoes.
How the world isn’t really ending.
How I should remember “Your first job is your first job. It’s not your career.”
How it always works out even when we think it won’t.
And then today, I went to the temple.
After I finished serving, I sat on a bench next to one of my friends who works there every Friday.
I told her about the boy.
How I wanted to help him but feel helpless.
She held my hand.
She listened.
She let me put my head on her shoulder while I cried.
She shared with me how her husband did not attend church before they married.
He started to through a series of miracles but tells her to this day, “Your influence saved my life."
Even though she can’t recall doing anything special except for being herself.
The comfort I felt from hearing her words washed over me.
God pulls through.
He did for me today.
He does for me all the time.
I believe He will every time.
He is our literal saving grace.
His whole work and His glory, His very reason for existing is to help us be happy and succeed.
Jeffrey R. Holland said this,
“The first great commandment of all eternity is to love God with all of our heart, might, mind and strength…
But the first great truth of all eternity is that God loves us with all of His heart, might, mind and strength.”
His purpose is us. His mission is us.
He is the One person we can count on.
Without fail.
Even if we feel like the world is falling apart.
Even if we are going through a dark time.
He pulls through.